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I'm dreaming of a white Christmas

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 18:55:14 GMT

Hey, so I haven't posted in a while, my internet's been down & I can't login at school..
for ASL (american sign language) we have to perform some songs in sign language at the walkway of lights,
I'm kinda excited & kinda scared.. my group chose 'Little Drummer Boy' and the whole class will do 'Silent Night', by Hanson, I don't like the way they sing it...

1.1

You can't ever let go of all the ~~feelings~~
but you need to let go of him

2.2

Come and whisper in my ear,
"You're very pretty, dear,"
and,
"It'll be alright."
You're lying, but I don't mind tonight.

3.3

The castle, well it may not be a castle.
And it's not so important to be ~~happy ever after~~,
just that it's happy right now.

4.4

Am I mad at you? Thats your main concern after shattering my world?
Mad for what?
Breaking my heart? Or for all the ~~lies~~?
Maybe for letting me put all my trust in you only to be betrayed? How about the fact you didnt have the decency to tell me to my face? Or the way you think its crazy crying over it because to you breaking up is no big deal....
Am I mad at you?
No....more like crushed

5.5

Plain women know more about men than beautiful ones do
But beautiful women don't need to know about men
It's the men who have to know about beautiful women

6.6

I dont want to like him anymore and I just can't, I'm obviously not good enough and I'm not going to sit around and wait until my chance until I'm good enough for him.
So I'm just over him.
but theres seriously something about him that makes me like him so much.
since I met him, there was something about him that makes me go absolutely crazy over him

7.7

She gave up beauty in her tender youth,
gave all her hope and joy and pleasant ways;
she covered up her eyes lest they should gaze on vanity, and chose the ~~bitter truth~~
-Christina Rossetti-

8.8

What is the big fuss about true love?
Fuck true love
It's overrated
Fuck ~~finding it~~
Fuck ~~questioning it~~
Fuck ~~obsessing over it~~
Love is love and the more complex you make it, the less like love it becomes

9.9

So most of the time, I don't know what I'm saying.
I can't turn the words in my head into words out loud.
But oh, if you could read my mind,
understand my thoughts,
I think you'd be surprised at what you'd find.
-hidden_disaster-

10.10

What I'd give to feel the slightest bit alive again temptation has a killer body
That boys got the devil inside him
that boy's got it

11.11

It's never something huge that changes everything
but instead, the tiniest details,
irrevocably tweaking the balance of the universe while you're busy focusing on the
~~BIG PICTURE~~

12.12

Rest assured this was no waste of time
Breaking your heart was no plan of mine
Every end is the start of something new
I hope you find someone who loves you

13.13

Maybe its the only way we can finally stand on our own
You know, to hurt each other so much that we have no choice

14.14

"Loneliness doesn’t kill.
It aches, and it taunts, but it doesn’t kill you.
Sometimes, I wish it did."
-Dangerouslyfabulous_x3-

15.15

As much as it sucks to hear someone doesn't love you,
it sucks more to hear that they lied when they said they did
- Radio Free Roscoe-

16.16

You know, booze isn't your drug of choice anyway
You're addicted to chaos
For some of us, it's coke; for some of us, it's bourbon
But you?
You got hooked on disaster

17.17

So maybe you and I were supposed to end this way, both going in our directions.
We are two completely different people and no matter how hard we tried,
we couldn't overcome our differences.
No, I'm ~~not sad~~ that it's over between us, but yet I'm not happy either.
We had something special,
but in the end the sparks didn't cut it.

18.18

Sometimes I wish I could just press fast forward to see if you’re worth all the wait

19.19

What we see
depends mainly
on what we look for

20.20

Road signs & streetlights are what guide you on your way
Distance doesn't seem to matter much if you've got big dreams at a young age

I know you don't think that I am trying

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 18:20:13 GMT

I found out that most people think I'm high most of the time for the way I talk and get off subject so easily, whatever, I'm not..

So there's this guy in my english class that I think I might like, he'll look at me and I'll look at him and then he'll smile and I'll smile too, and the teacher will talk and it's all over, but I'll be good for the rest of the day just thinking about that moment we shared and how we'll share another one tomorrow.

.1.

Ask anyone and they'll tell you how happy I've been lately
I haven't felt this amazing in a very long time
A lot of this has to do with you walking into my life

.2.

And when she says she wants somebody else,
I hope you know she ~~doesn't mean you~~

.3.

Read, every day, something no one else is reading.
Think, every day, something no one else is thinking.
Do, every day, something no one else would be silly enough to do.
It is bad for the mind to continually be part of ~~unanimity~~
+Christopher Morley+

.4.

The power of a glance has been so much abused in love stories, that it has come to be ~~disbelieved~~ in.
Few people dare now say that two beings have fallen in love because they have 'looked at each other'
Yet it is in this way that love begins,
and in this way only…nothing is more real than these great shocks which two souls give each other in exchanging this spark

.5.

And then, something happened.
I let go.
Lost in oblivion.
Dark and silent and complete.
I found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom.

.6.

When you look in his eyes and he's looking back at yours, everything feels not quite normal because you feel stronger and weaker at the same time.
You feel excited and at the same time terrified.
The truth is you don't know what you feel except you know what kind of person you want to be.
It's as if you reached the unreachable and you ~~weren't ready for it~~

.7.

The things two people do to each other they remember.
If they stay together, it's not because they ~~forget~~; it's because they forgive

.8.

Maybe we're ~~too young~~ and I don't know what's real, but I know I've never wanted anything so bad.
I've never wanted anyone so bad

.9.

If you don't wanna love me then I'll find somebody else who will
Find another kind of thrill
Find another way to fill this loneliness

.10.

Somehow you have managed to get under my skin, more than anyone ever did.
And if every hole makes a scar and every scar marks its place, then I will never live freely without your trace.
And it'll never be fair, I wrote my songs for you and you never even cared.
So I'll forget you.
I'll wash your t-shirt, kill the pillow and cut you out of pictures.

.11.

When you don't have love, it is like there's a party going on and everybody was invited except for you, and you just happen to walk by that house in the rain.
-Dane Cook-

.12.

"He stayed in the middle of the road for a long time,
trying to catch his breath,
hoping she would turn around and come back to him,
wishing he hadn't let her go.
Wishing for one more chance."

.13.

I wanted to tell him how I can't get him off my mind or how the mere thought of him makes my heart skip a beat and how I ~~blush~~ anytime someone says his name.
But somehow, it didn't come out like that at all.
It just came out, "I'll always be here," which was true

.14.

A guy and a girl can be just friends.
But at one point or another, they will fall for each other.
Maybe temporarily,
maybe at the wrong time,
maybe too late,
or maybe forever.

.15.

I told myself this was gonna be the day.
No more excuses, I knew exactly what to say.
I was going to make my play, but just like yesterday my mind ~~erased~~,
~~I let the moment slip away~~.
Another night I'll be sitting here all by my own, picking up the phone, but I can't get past the dial tone.
Racking my brain, going insane, again and again.
I can't keep going on this way.

.16.

Maybe you still love me.
~~Maybe you don't~~.
Either you will or you won't.
Maybe you just need some time alone.
I will try to understand everything has its plan. Either way, I'm going to stay right for you.
Maybe the sun will shine today. The clouds will roll away.
Maybe I won't be so afraid.
I will understand everything has its plan, either way

.17.

She knew the well was far too deep for him to wet his lips
But something told her that he spoke of so much more than all of this

.18.

I hate not having you in my life
You have a part of my heart
You always will, and that ~~kills me~~

.19.

And the music doesn't feel like it did when I felt it with you
~~Nothing~~ that I do or feel ever feels like I felt it with you

.20.

Look at all these quotes.
All about a ~~stupid boy~~ that will never care, who will probably never even see these.
I think we make quotes so girls can realize that there is something better out there,
that there is Mr. Right.
Quotes are almost a reassurance. They comfort you.
And when going through ~~heartbreak~~, you can realize that there are girls who actually know and feel what you're going through.
Quotes make you realize that boys aren't worth it, yet at the same time, they are.
Quotes talk about holding hands, kissing, tickling and what not.
But then there are quotes about how dumb boys are and how they leave you for some other girl.
I think quotes are just another way of expressing how we feel without sounding out of our minds.
((props to whoever wrote this))

you will find me here the place you least expected me to be

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 20:49:17 GMT

I haven't posted in a while, sorry.
I've had 'One' by Three Dog Night stuck in my head all weekend.

.1.

I don't think I'll ever be able to look at you & feel nothing
-didyouforget_quotes-

.2.

No is the saddest experience you'll ever know
Yes, it's the saddest experience you'll ever know

.3.

Be open-minded,
but not so open-minded that your brains ~~fall out~~
+Stephen A. Kallis, Jr.+

.4.

One day, you'll miss me like hell and you'll wish you never fucked it up.
And one day you'll come running back to what could've been yours,
should've been yours.
And you'll see that this time around I'm the one not giving a damn.

.5.

She thinks I'm crazy, judging by the faces that she's making
And I think she's pretty, but pretty's just part of the things she does that amaze me
And she calls me sweetheart
I love it when she wakes me when it's still dark
And she watches the sun, but she's the only one I have my eyes on

.6.

But, I’ve been told that a cheater Is always a cheater;
So I’ve got my pride, and she’s got ~~you~~

.7.

My thoughts are free to go anywhere,
but its surprising how often they head in your direction

.8.

&& I'm blasting my music so that I won't hear my thoughts,
but it's so stupid because the lyrics just remind me of what I'm ~~trying to forget~~
How in the world did you manage to get all these people to sing about you?

.9.

The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own
No apologies or excuses
No one to ~~lean on~~, ~~rely on~~, or ~~blame~~
The gift is yours; it is an amazing journey,
And you alone are responsible for the quality of it
This is the day your life really begins

.10.

It makes me smile to know
I'm a constant distraction
in your daily life

.11.

People who think they know ~~everything~~ are very irritating
to those of us who do

.12.

I sink into the lyrics with a sigh.
The music, at least for a little while, fills a sweet sort of ache.
When one song is done, another takes its place.
An endless stream of comfort and distraction to help me for a while.

.13.

When I close my eyes I still see your smile and I still feel your lips
No this isnt love, but its pretty darn close

.14.

It's when you start to get that feeling you thought you could never have again

.15.

Because sometimes it’s easier to say,
"I hate you"
than
"~~I miss you~~, I wish we didn’t fight; I wish you would call me sometimes."
Because sometimes, it’s easier to think, screw life, screw work, screw everything, than admit that you’re overwhelmed and feel like you’re drowning.
Because sometimes, it’s easier to admit the simple things than say the hard things and realize how much you’ve been struggling and how much you feel as if life has gone out of your control.

Sorry it's so short, but I gotta go to dinner with my Oma.

I've Got those Love Sick Blues

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 21:21:47 GMT

.1.

Explain to me how you're so damn naive,
think I don't see
Forget what I said,
you're only good in bed, or ~~on your knees~~

.2.

The whole room could feel her heart shatter
When she saw them happy together

.3.

Hello again, seems like ~~forever~~ between now and then
You look the same
I mean, you look different, but you haven't changed

.4.

It's one of those life rules that when you don't care about guys noticing you, they most often do

.5.

I've been laying here all night, listening to the rain.
Talking to my heart and trying to explain.
Why sometimes I catch myself wondering what might have been.
Yes I do think about you, every now and then. Everyday.

Come break me down bury me, bury me: I am finished with you

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 00:07:49 GMT

.1.

And it's usually the SMALL THINGS that count
Like when he stared at you from across the room

.2.

I can't read your lips unless they're touching mine

.3.

I had always thought of myself as aware and thoughtful,
but it had occurred to me that most people believed this of themselves.
Even as they cheated on their lovers and averted their eyes from the homeless.
You could ask a wife beater if he was a good person
and he'd probably say ~~YES~~.

.4.

Here's to the notes lost in the washer, to the memories ~~washed away~~.
Here's to never forgetting.
Here's to being young and never wanting to grow up.
Here's to waking up next to the one you love.
~~Here's to believing every lie people ever told you~~.
Here's to those that just need someone to sleep next to.
Here's to change, both good and bad.
Here's to missing people you care about.
Here's to moving on.
Here's to feeling infinite.
Here's to all the wishes at 11:11, hoping one day they'll come true.
Here's to remembering old friends.
~~Here's to all the words we never said, and to the ones we choke on~~.
Here's to holding your breath in that one perfect moment.
Here's to the ones who were on top of the world but fell off.
Here's to every tear you've wasted on people who never cared.
Here's to trying to be perfect even when you know its not possible.
Here's to finding him, and holding on tight.
Here's to the nights spent living for the moment.
Here's to speaking the most honest words you've ever spoken in your life.
Here's to those who fall in love in their dreams.
Here's to not knowing, and not wanting to know.
Here's to those who wonder where love starts.
Here's to serendipity... even if it ~~doesn't last~~.
Here's to the girls who fall too fast... and know it.
Here's to the songs that make you feel like nothing hurts.
Here's to the ones who bend over backwards to be loved, but aren't.
Here's to everyone who has ever cried themselves to sleep.
Here's to those nights where you just can't sleep.
~~Here's to every word they said to you replaying, over and over~~.
Here's to leaping before you look.
Here's to the times I wish I had said NO.
Here's to the times I'm glad I said YES.
Here's to that tingly butterfly feeling you get when he's around.
Here's to the nights when feelings change, for better or worse.
Here's to the first kisses.
Here's to those who survived to become stronger, better people.
Here's to LIFE, as hard as it may be, and picking yourself up when you've ~~fallen down~~.

.5.

What luck for rulers that men do not think
-Adolf Hitler-

.6.

"Let's be clear: I don't love her, okay?
I just... miss her when she's not around,
think about her all the time,
and I imagine us one day running towards each other in slow motion
and I'm wearing a brown suede vest."

.7.

To find someone you LOVE,
you've got to be someone YOU LOVE

.8.

There's a reason why two people come together & stay together;
they both give each other something no one else can

.9.

I swore I'd walk across state lines to get to you
I just didn't think every ten feet, fate would test me by throwing road spikes down
And yes baby, my feet are ~~bleeding~~, but I'll see you soon

.10.

True love isn't love at first sight;
it should be love at every sight

.11.

Follow your heart,
but bring your brain with you

.12.

I know just how it feels to think of the right thing to say too late.
- Robert Frost-

.13.

The way you walk into a room may seem ~~normal~~ to most, but to me, it’s like finally catching your breath after you’ve lost it.
Your embrace is something history books will write about one day.
You could carry the Atlantic in your arms with ease, if needed.
And your heart.
Your heart is what amazes me.
It’s something I wonder if even a God could create.
Your love is what man works their entire life to find.
It’s the kind of thing you could lean the world on.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, I love every inch of your existence.

.14.

I honestly couldn't care less if you like the same ~~bands~~ or you've read the same books.
Tell me one original thing,
tell me one true,
real thing that brings me to my fucking knees that I've never heard before and I'm yours.

.15.

There are some hurts that you never completely get over.
And you think that time will ~~diminish~~ their presence and to a degree it does,
but it still hurts because well,
hurt hurts.

.16.

"Knowing is better than wondering,
walking is better than ~~sleeping~~,
and even the biggest failures,
even the worst,
beat the hell out of ~~never trying~~."

.17.

What's it gonna take for you to see that I love you?
I can't think of anything else I could do.
You've taken who I am and changed it all around...
you've brought me to my high, only to bring me back down.
And you've ~~taken my heart~~.
I don't think you're giving it back any time soon.

.18.

One day you'll realize that the fairytale might be slightly different then you dreamed

.19.

There's that occasional night where you just
break down and ~~cry~~
because you know that no matter what,
things will never be the same.

.20.

Don't complain about ~~getting old~~
So many people don't get the chance

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 21:52:35 GMT

Wow it has been a while..
nothing really new has happened, I got the Sims 3 and am addicted to it.
I saw 9 the other day: I love that movie!!
& I saw the commercial for the new Alice In Wonderland...
I can't wait.
I'm going to the beach this weekend, it might rain alot, that would suck

UGGH I was gonna update but I have to go... maybe later or tomorrow

What's the problem I don't know, well maybe I'm in love

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 22:58:47 GMT

Ugggh, I hate ~~homework~~. I have to write 2 research papers for math, yes MATH. I have to write 2 papers on gosh darn statistics, isn't that why I have english???
So far school hasn't been too bad, except the math thing & in 2 weeks I have to go to an elementary school and sign(American Sign Language) a story to little kids while JW reads the book, but that isn't terrible. I'm still passing all of my classes, ~~so far~~, even though it's only been 2 weeks.
The guy who I had a huge crush on last year now has a girlfriend who is pretty nice, but I liked him sooo much, too bad he lost interest when he found out who my ~~cousin~~ is...
Oh well, I like a new guy now, he's cute & smart & thankfully not too ~~quiet~~, but he's not a sarcastic ass (that's my type), I still like him though. He reminds me of Elijah (sp?) Wood. I know his favorite movie is Jackass, his favorite dog is a pug, his favorite food is ribs, and he loves Green Day, I think we're meant to be or something.. oh and yesterday in english I was freezing and he gave me his Cradle of Filth hoodie, it smelt so good...
Yeah, so.......

.1.

No one has to know the ~~truth~~ about this
We were just going for a walk and a kiss or two

.2.

"Be not the slave of your own past.
Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far,
so you shall come back with self-respect,
with new power,
with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

.3.

God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts
I guess the ~~loneliness~~ came knocking
No one needs to be alone

.4.

I'm never letting this one go,
because often certain people enter our lives at the most ~~peculiar times~~
for the most beautiful reasons
They seem to make the most perfect impressions while leaving behind an everlasting impact
some of the best things in life appear when you least expect them
things you can never forget

.5.

Even though you think at this very moment
he couldn't possibly be thinking of you,
he probably is

.6.

&& the feeling I get when you hold my hand its like magic
&& I hope it never ~~goes away~~
-wowxhowxsweet-

.7.

She believed in dreams all right,
but she also believed in doing something about them.
When Prince Charming didn't come along,
she went over to the palace and got him
-Walt Disney-

.8.

Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman,
but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man

.9.

Come lay in bed with me
I just need someone tonight
I need someone to hold me, talk with me
Nothing major
Today's just one of those days where
I need someone to make me feel loved

.10.

Strange how a single conversation can change you.
Or maybe it only seems that way in retrospect.
A year passes and you know you feel ~~differently~~,
but you’re not sure what or why or how,
so your mind casts back for something that might give that
difference shape:
a word,
a glance,
a touch

tell me you love me too

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 19:48:53 GMT

So tomorrow's the 1st day of school... yah.
I'm not sure if I'm excited or scared considering it's my last year
and I have no clue what I wanna do after I graduate,
I might join the Navy if I so choose & don't figure it out by next August

.1.

~~Goodbye~~ is so hard but I'll say it anyway

.2.

Everybody just keeps on moving on in this crazy, messed up world.
That's all you can do anyways.
You keep smiling,
You keep moving,
You just keep on living
Cause who knows, you might just be the only thing keeping somebody else from ~~stopping~~.
You might be someone's everything and not even know it.
If you stop moving,
what's to keep them from stopping too?

.3.

All I want to do is be with you
It doesn’t have to be ~~forever~~ because nothing lasts forever
But those smiles mean something; those butterflies say something to me
Your voice could save me

.4.

When it comes down to life, you risk nothing or ~~everything~~
That's just how it is

.5.

At some point, you've got to man up and ~~jump~~.
You've got to quit being scared of the 'maybes' and 'what ifs' and just freaking jump.
Quit ~~cheating yourself~~ out of the best thing that could ever happen to you,
quit cheating him out of what he's wanted for so long and just fall.
Fall hard,
fall long,
and fall forever

.6.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about taking chances,
and how it’s really just about overcoming your ~~fears~~.
Because the truth is,
every time you take a big risk in your life,
no matter how it ends up, you’re always glad you took it.
-Scrubs-

.7.

So you go back, you always go back to the last point when you were happy
And you hang on

.8.

To forget somebody isn't ~~possible~~.
Deep inside, you remember everything.
You may not think of them for years at a time but you don't know how to forget.
You can recall the way they smiled when they were happy and the way their faces showed no expression when they couldn't find their way.

.9.

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday

.10.

It's the little things that you do that make me want to hold on for that much ~~longer~~

.11.

I remember in kindergarten when a boy gave me a flower, and I kept it by my bed.
It's funny how now that we're older you can't expect something like that from a guy.
You can't expect anything more than words.
*hidden_disaster*

.12.

I believe in ~~love~~, and in arguing and in jamming out by yourself in the car
I believe in having someone tell you that you're beautiful,
dancing in the rain,
and MIRACLES
I believe in smiling until your cheeks hurt and laughing until you pee yourself
Last, I believe in second chances, even if you've completely ~~screwed up~~

.13.

I wanted to get away,
but he placed his hands around my waist as I started to leave and asked me not to go
I stayed
and what a mistake I made

.14.

It just bothers me because you never really do know if he cares or if it's just a ~~facade~~.
He could tell you that your his "only one", but how do you know he won't turn around and say it to someone else too?
Relationships are hard and a lot of people say that it doesn't work without trust,
and yeah,
that's true.
But I think in order to be compeletely head over heels, you have to be willing to be ~~stupid~~.
You have to be willing to fall.

.15.

I'm just another ~~teenage romantic~~.
I shouldn't believe in fairytales anymore, but somehow I do.

Live right now You just be yourself It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 18:17:23 GMT

So today's my birthdy YAY!!
Saturday I got a brand new dell laptop, but it turns out that it doesn't have a place for a phone line, and I have dial-up. Why does technology always have to be moving forward and forget the little guys?
School starts next week, yeah.
I went out on our boat yesterday and I scraped up my elbow and thumb on a new tube, it kinda reminds me of a kolache 'cause you can take the middle out and make it a sit-in or put it in and it's a lay-on.
It was fun though.

.1.

Don't ever ~~change~~ the way you are,
I've never loved anyone more

.2.

"It's so hard to forget pain, but it’s even harder to remember sweetness.
We have no ~~scar~~ to show for happiness.
We learn so little from peace."

.3.

Have faith in love, if nothing else.

.4.

Contrary to what the cynics say, ~~distance~~ is not for the fearful,
it is for the bold
It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange
for a little time with the one they love
It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it,
even if they don't see it nearly enough

.5.

High School is like a spork;
it's a crappy spoon and a crappy fork,
so in the end it's just plain useless.
-John Mayer-

.6.

You know, one day you look at a person and see something more than you did the day before,
like a switch has been flickered somewhere,
and the person who was just your friend is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with

.7.

The most important thing in communication is hearing
what isn't being said

.8.

I wish pain was like a one night stand.
Here, then gone, never to be heard from again
-BulletInTheHeartKindaPain-

.9.

I just wish that you could notice that with every smile I flash,
I'm simply telling you that I love you
I love you a thousand times over

.10.

Who are you kidding, baby?
He's always close enough to touch but never quite close enough to hold

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 19:19:59 GMT

So 2 days ago it was my little bro's b-day, now he's 12
&& in 2 weeks it'll be my b-day whoo! 17 such a big number
I can't wait,
then 2 weeks after my b-day it's my dad's he'll be old[er] (49) huge number

many FIGHT CLUB quotes, sorry but I just love that movie

.1.

We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place.
We have no ~~Great War~~. No ~~Great Depression~~.
Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives.
We've all been raised on television to believe that one day
we'd all be ~~millionaires~~, and movie gods, and rock stars.
But we won't.
And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off.
-Fight Club-

.2.

You pull back your curtains and the sun burns into your eyes
You watch a plane flying across a clear blue sky
This is the day your life will surely change
This is the day when things fall into place

.3.

Marla's philosophy of life is that she might die at any moment
The tragedy, she said, was that she ~~didn't~~
-Fight Club-
.4.

Stop being afraid of what could go ~~wrong~~ and think of what could go right

.5.

I was lost and so confused, running circles around you
I thank the stars that I found my way now back to the simple things in life
Day to day, just getting by,
counting sheep and highway signs
That's just fine

.6.

Sometimes I feel like I'm ~~wasting~~ all my time waiting for my life to start.
I'd rather trip and fall than never try.
I don't want to waste another day while the world goes by.
I wanna live it,
I wanna breathe it,
I wanna feel it for myself

.7.

I was nothing more than your favorite soundtrack
I was played till I ~~skipped~~ and ~~scratched~~ on nearly every track
You pulled me out whenever you needed
something for a party or when life hurt you a little too much
Well, I'm touched, but I'd love to be more than background music

.8.
"This is your life and it's ~~ending~~ one minute at a time"
-Fight Club-

.9.

I would just sit there for literally hours waiting for some sign of him, some sign that maybe he was thinking of me. I would make the ~~littlest things~~ into the biggest deals and I would just wait, and then when I finally did see him, I wouldn't bring myself to say, "Hey." It was like I was trying to prove to him that I'm stronger now and I don't need him to be able to sleep at night and I don't need him to be able to get up out of bed anymore. I mean, there really was a time that I couldn't concentrate on anything ~~but him~~ and those "I dare you" eyes that I couldn't get out of my head. He controlled me. I hardly ever saw him or even talked to him for sometimes weeks at a time and it had been months since we had been over but he still controlled my every breath, my every thought, my ~~every emotion~~. It was like he was living inside of me, and there was nothing I was capable of doing to get rid of him. I would cry and pray to God to let me let him go, but something in me wouldn't bring myself to say goodbye. I knew I was never going to be able to go an entire day without wondering how he was doing or what he was thinking of, but what he was thinking didn't matter 'cause I knew that deep down, he wasn't thinking of me. And even if he was, it didn't mean anything anymore. He had proved to me that he didn't need me, and if it was the last thing I ever did, I was going to prove to him that
I didn't need him either

.10.

It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything
-Fight Club-

.11.

Sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken
-Fight Club-

.12.

All the time we spent together
Every night we stayed up late
All the looks that I've ~~forgotten~~
And the plans we never made
Do you ever wonder about everything you left?
Do you question your decisions?
Do you ever second guess?

.13.

And I wasn't the only slave to my nesting instinct.
The people I know who used to sit in the bathroom with pornography,
now they sit in the bathroom with their ~~IKEA furniture catalogue~~
-Fight Club-

.14.

Anyone who calls it "sexual intercourse" can't possibly be interested in actually doing it.
You might as well announce you're ready for lunch by proclaiming,
"I'd like to do some masticating and enzyme secreting"

.15.

Do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our life?
Or if the moments in our life make us?